NO MATTER WHAT THE OUTCOME.
12th place at worlds, What’s my feeling?
In the past, I have too often let the pressure to win (or rather, the pressure NOT TO LOSE!), be much too loud. It became overpowering. You can only go so far, fuelled on fear. I have fought to change my perception of things in the past years. It has been a hard fight.
I believe that is why, life graced me with 2013 season that was a big smack in the face in my training and racing.
A season where things seemed to hold me back, get in my way and try to break me. Where I was injured and unable to run in training and where I ended up feeling very lucky when I could be well enough to get out there and race. There was no more hiding from myself OR FROM FAILURE. Time had come to face it. I had to stand on the line and face a much higher possibility of not getting the best result. And I had no choice but to…